It's been six months- with little, or rather, NO progress.
Sometimes i doubt my chance stands.
To be honest, sometimes i really wonder if there even IS, a chance.
I guess it's this inevitable fear of failing.
No one likes to fail to achieve their hopes and aspirations, No one.
But through it all, i'll keep believeing.
I know the aftermath of it all may not tally with my heart's desire,
but i'll hang onto whatever little hope i have.
Come what may, i know the journey and destination would all be worth my while.

School was pretty bad halfway through the curriculum today.
):
Though i saw it coming, i just couldn't really accept the way reality was brought across to me.
It's as though ALL your effort is JUNK.
J U N K.
& funny, i had always been strong bout such matters but today was a total blooper.
I guess it really hit hard this time.
"With great expectations come great disappointments"
I don't think my self esteem had ever hit that low before.
Yes, i felt like a total idiot, literally.
Well maybe i AM.
/: Sometimes people have lower IQs than others, yknow.

ANYWAY.
Buddy, thanks for helping me get my cranberry juice and cookie.
They is my Happy foods. We shall keep to our pact ok.
Corinne, (: Your friendship and support rocks more than you know it, really. I love how we can understand each other and talk bout anything under the sun including you-know-which-two and most imptly, you.
Maine, I dont know how you knew bout it but thanks for the encouraging message and the hug. I can't wait to see you tmr. I miss you bad!
Feng, First person i looked for in the canteen was you. I didnt know what to say then so i just remained silent and placed my hand over your shoulders. Thanks for lending me your shoulder to cry on and all the encouragement. JIE MEI. i really really apprecaite it.
Dine, I'm fine. thanks for the msg! (:

Drats, i dont even know why im afected over everything.
i feel quite dumbbbbbb.
nevermind.

Life right now just makes me wanna take a nice walk by the beach and gaze at the waves crashing into the sea.
CLASSIC eh? But it works for me.
Sighhhhhhhh
wtf.

Yeah okayy ive gotta go get busy with work.
Hopefully tomorrow would be a better day.
even if isnt we've just gotta pretend it is.
thats how it is anyway,
even if you're unhappy deep inside, you cant show it.
you dont show it.
cos why dampen the spirits of them happy fellas.
):

TILL THEN!


you make me feel like giving up.
"make it real or take it all away"
good thinking.